Monday, 13 October 2008

The Love in Family

Today I watched the movie The Sixth Sense again, and been touched again. I almost burst into tears when I was seeing the scene where Cole's mom hugs him and so worries about him when she feels Cole is trembling. At that time I felt that how I wish somebody could hug me when I was trembling and scared. That really will make me feel warm.But it never happened.

Maybe it's because of my family or maybe it's because of the culture of the country. A home is supposed to give warmness and happiness and sense of security. I am desperate to be in a home. Though I may seemed cold-blooded - I do never feel homesick nor likely to contact my family frequently. I think that may because I never feel home when I'm at home. I still always say 'I want to go home' when I'm actually in my home. I guess what I need is a real home which I never experienced.

Saturday, 13 September 2008

SPRING COMES FINALLY!

can't control my cheerful emotion, I can't help but cheer that spring you finally comes! I waited so long in the damn winter. God I hate winter, It's like I slept all the winter.Now I wakes at last in the spring.Now I feel I am the real me now. It's like I feel nothing bur depressed in the whole winter. Now spring comes, everything comes back to life. All the plants are in flower, the pear trees with the little white flowers are really beautiful. What's really amazing is the little plant which lost all its leaves after I took it back from university of Melbourne now all in the new buds now! What a amazing world isn't it. I love spring, I love summer!

Wednesday, 10 September 2008

Pixar, aren't you the best

tonight i watched the lateset pixar movie Wall.E. I have to say that was marvelous! As it has always be. Pixar never fails to give us the best animations. My whole life brights because of pixar. Pixar, aren't you the best?

Tuesday, 9 September 2008

Finally fate starts to challenge

today,At this very day, the last team except ours, dismissed. All of their members went back to the apartment to eat. We are the last team that cook for ourselves left... From the apartment compromized and we start to cook for ourselves in teams to today, things have changed dromatically. From the extreme irritation to the apartment's cookery, all the way to today that  people's determination all collapses and goes back. Only us, still stands in the storm, refuse to compromize. donno how much time it will take to being us back...Or we'll fight until the last minute.

Tuesday, 26 August 2008

An impressive DAY!

today is a very inpressive day!A bunch of things happened.some are happy,some are...
The first thing really cheers me up. I got news about my volunteer job again! I thought i may have lost the opportunity bacause my terrible english. But it turns out I have not! I am so happy and excited about this.
And I am quite confident about my SAC exam this morning. I answered all the problems all done and haven't found any of them wrong while other fellow classmates all feel quite devastated about that exam.
I went to the open day of UNSW today. That's an excellent event even though it was only held in a small hotel suite. All the staff are so enthusiastic, especially the lady at the engeering section. She was so kind that explained every model of majors on the brochure(she apparently knows every model on the brochure),and lead us to other staff for more imformation... that was so sweet.
But one thing I have to mention is my supper tonight... That was horribly terrible...
sweet Norris was show off his innovative cookery again, only he fails this time...He used lime juice to cook chicken wings. The taste was unbelivable, but not only the taste, the appearance of it was like it is just draged out of sewer...and it's smells sick too. anyway, i don't want to think about that ever again.

Tuesday, 29 July 2008

misunderstanded

I didn't know until now, that I indeed misundertanded. I made a really really big mistake. I shouldn't have done all those things, I shouldn't have given out my emotion so compleletely. That causes me so deep pain. I shouldn't have done all these as no matter I do there won't be any response. The pain I had so long is all because of me, it is me caused my pain.

Saturday, 21 June 2008

THE WORST BORING MOVIE EVER

I wathed the most boring movie that I ever saw in my whole life yesterday.THE ASSASSINATION OF JESSE JAMES. What a boring movie it is! It really renewed my knowledge of how boring  a movie could be. I didn't know how i finished. It was like torture. if it wasn't Brad Pitt, i'd throw it straight to my dustbin. but after all, it tested my perseverance(i just laerned this word today.donno if a used it rightly). Alright, after this torture , I decided I'll never force myself to see a movie anymore!

Saturday, 14 June 2008

went to a beautiful Party!

We joined a party at Mr.Fay's house today.That was brilliant to tell you the truth! I had the best BBQ i've ever had. That was so different from the BBQ cooked by ourselves, but much dilicious! after the meal we had this excellent desert, little cakes(made my our pretty Jessy) and trifle and also chaocolates and candies which i did't eat much as i don't like sweet. It was the first time I ever taste a trifle. the cream was brilliant, but I don't like the wine soaked in it, i still can't get used to alcohol. after that i watch the guys play the chess. get bored, i went to talk with a friend of Mr.Fay, we talked about my plan of education. The male friend of Mr.fay was a pilot! He used to drive airliners. That was astonishing, really. then we were drived to see cangaroos. in a large farm there were a large group of cangaroos! I've never seen so large a group of cangaroos! that ws gorgeous.

anyway, I had a really good day today. i won't forget it.

Tuesday, 3 June 2008

aren't they paradox?

I keep wonder, are the most humurous people actually the ones triy the hardiest to hide themselves? Are the seeming most happy people actually the ones conceal the biggest sorrow? Maybe the ones that appears sad all day are the ones have the least sorrow. Is it the most pathetic thing to hide all the sorrow and act as a really happy person?

Wednesday, 21 May 2008

OMG!What a lousy translator!

The translator appointed in the International News release conference of the shocking earthquake happened in China shocked me deeply. It is because she's quite lousy translator in a really important INTERNATIONAL conference. I even wonder if the foreign journalists can really understand what she translated, because she's pronunciation was shockingly bad despite the frequently stucks in her speech. There was a foreign journalist asked three questions, the translator only got two of them, so she have only to ask the journalist to repeat... What's more, she even tried to correct  the journalist's mistake which actually is her misunderstanding. I can't imagine how the journalist thought about it.

The question is why the hell the lame translator can be chosen to assign in a conference so important like this. It was a international conference! Is it really because there's no better translators in the entire country? I don't think so. It was really a shame to the entire world i think.

Monday, 28 April 2008

An impressive thing occurred on baidu knows

The day I was surfing on internet, I was on the baidu knows. All of a sudden a tip of questions drew my attention. It's a mother asking "my kid suddenly fell down, got a cramp, and is now unconscious, what should I do?!" That kills me, imagine the worried mother typing the question on internet while check the symptoms of his kid, and waiting for the answers, what a depressing picture! Hope that mother wouldn't get a answer like " go to hospital!"

Friday, 28 March 2008

【转】听甩头佬一句劝,不要参加这些活动

事先声明,为了确保论坛不被和谐,以下内容所有字句都经过仔细斟酌。

最近爪哇国很不平静,多年的不平和压抑,加上民族里的强悍基因(当地的狗据说都比中原的厉害),终于有和尚带头闹起事来,又烧又砸又杀。分落各地的和尚们也不甘人后,烧旗的烧旗,爬墙的爬墙。别看爪哇国对友邦们是倾国之力结欢心,换着对自己人却一点也没迟疑,AK SVD齐出,一时间乒乒乓乓杯盘乱飞,双方互有损伤,留下一地尸骸。远方的如来佛祖呼吁和尚们继续甘地不要对抗,但无奈佛祖的影响力早已大不如前,占山头的多年来对佛祖的强硬立场,结果只是制造了一批更强硬的和尚罢了。再加上占山头的一直拿着刀要求和尚们丢弃佛祖而信黄大仙,但实际上连他们自己都不信黄大仙灵验,试问又怎能赶得走人家信了上千年的偶像呢?

别看占山头的政治智慧不怎么样,但他们很明显吸取了19年前的经验,来一招封锁加赶客,把个和尚寺围个铁桶样。于是外人只听见寺里惨叫不断,巨响无数,然后一切归于沉寂,但里面到底是和尚们被切了还是香客们被波及了还是煮饭的大妈被融了还是看热闹的被下菜了还是围寺的自伤三百了,无人知晓。但爪哇国上下,从这以后只能听见一把声音,只能看见一个图像,只能听到一个观点,只能读到一篇文章,只能了解一个态度。

奇特的是,这把声音某天突然将矛头转向附近的所罗门国,说所罗门国的媒体乱报道,配错图片搞错地点,“意图不轨”的诛心论又再出笼。于是,那把声音就轻松地将焦点从围寺转移到批判一个和他们八辈子打不到边的外国媒体上了,“垃圾媒体”,“充满偏见”等等语言甚嚣尘上,而更奇特的是这个几乎全世界最有影响力的媒体,实际上爪哇国人是不可能通过正常途径接触到,甚至是从来没听说过的。

事件到此应该就告一段落,但最奇特的是占山头的现在又将这批外国媒体请到寺里参观,好烟好酒地招呼着。那些之前连bnn还是ccn都搞不清就跟着振臂跟着喷口水的人,此时不知道会不会有被愚弄的感觉?

你以为写完了吗?现在才入正题呢。

你父母那一辈所经历的劫难对你来说太远了,也太飘渺了,因为你所知道的就是历史书上那短短几行字,抽象得很,也毫无印象得很。,我们来说近的。)

年前没有互联网,没有你们这些网络口水爱国,再说那批人比你们的大多数的素质都高得多,而最重要的是他们真的去振臂了,他们振臂不是对什么cbn,不是对着地球另一边的所罗门国,而是对着那些占山头的,他们真的天真幼稚到那个程度,认为他们能改变些什么。他们虽然失败了,但他们震动了整个时代,影响一直持续到今。

从此之后的一批批人都学乖了,也懂得投机了,一切的振臂,都只能看着占山头的面色,而且只能对外。99年,又一批人冲上街头,另一边厢,时任大臣开始瓜分国内资源,大臣后裔加紧移民;

05年,反太阳青年上街砸同胞商店汽车,占山头的本授意下面的闹闹就算了,谁知道竟然闯了大祸,友邦很不高兴,占山头的最怕友邦不高兴,赶忙抓几个杀头示众。200年前的神风团故事21世纪后现代版,又再上演.
08年,海外的爪哇国人想借上述事件也来表达一腔热血。为什么是海外的?因为他们深知厉害关系,换在爪哇国,即使给他们十个胆,占山头的没有点头,他们绝对不敢吱半声。而现在是在外国,他们知道这里是讲道理的地方,而且他们认为自己做的是正确的事,祖国应该会支持,而或许祖国确实在支持,不然一夜间那么多海报宣传铺天盖地,打死我也不信海外的爪哇人舍得拿那几元钱出来印海报抽时间满世界帖。, 但祖国到现在为止没有任何声音,这可以是好事也可以是坏事。

好事的话,幕后策划的人事后封官加爵,你们一干小兵发泄一下,回家该打工的打工,该申请PR的申请PR,祖国也马上借光从幕后站上前台,同一把声音当晚又多了几个素材;

坏事的话,翻脸不认人,与我无关,各位生死各安天命,要出了什么乱子澳洲**一声令下,你们这班学生不是来读书的,全部给我滚回去!


年青人最容易被煽动,感情最单一,也最容易被利用。无论好事还是坏事,反正就是没你的事。你要做的就是好好读书,不要瞎参加这些活动,对得起你爸妈的期望和投资。要振臂,也应该由皇上和他臣民的子女去振,或者他们都在外国,或者在忙着圈钱分家。那不要紧,就大家都各忙各的吧.

听甩头佬一句劝,不要去参加什么振臂活动,对你没有好处的。

Tuesday, 25 March 2008

stop hiding

for how long have i hidden my feelings, i can't remember. when it started, i can't remember. i'm getting enough of it. when i was in primary school, i was quite introverted, always bullying by other people. But i have these best friends. We can talk about what is deep inside in our heart. they were and always my best friends. Then i went to junior high school, i learned to be strong, and don't get bullied any more. But only got one good friend, and he wasn't as good as the ones in my promary school, he used to bully me. then i graduated from junior high school, and got over the deathlike summer. ever since dad told me the thing, i wanted to cried, but i never cried out. i really got myself pretected inside. i hid myself deep inside and never show them up any more. in my senior school, i became a really funny man, i learned to protect myself with the goddamn humor. the happier i mades them, the lonelier i feels. i always feel i am so lonely, i never found a real good friend since primary school. but i know it is because i am hidding myself from others. they don't show their heart to me is because i never showed my heart to others. i seem get closer relationships with others but my heart get more more far from others.
i don't want to hide but i'm afraid. i'm afraid they won't understand me and they will laugh at me. i donno what shoud i do. what am i suppose to do about this? i donno i really donno.

Sunday, 23 March 2008

ignorant chinese people and goddamn communist party

now the party finally can report on the tibet incident,they finally make up a perfect lie. they forbiden and drove out all the western media from Tibet during the whole protest. and now they are blaming the western media report the false information. the report in china contains nothing about the attack of chinese amy to the protestors. they says they never hurt a protestors and they only report the chinese victims. and the ignorant chinese people has been provoked and begin to blame the western media, blame every country which reported the Tibet incident. it means they are blame against all the countries in the world. they regard the world as an enemy again. the bonehead chinese people, they are just monkies who play around by the party. how pathetic are they.

Saturday, 22 March 2008

素质教育?

素质教育好像已经说了很多年了吧。但其实根本没有效果。照样是填鸭式教学,照样是在不断破坏学生的创造力,照样不停的补课,不允许有兴趣爱好。人们似乎也已经知道这不对,改革也说了很多年,为什么没有动作呢。

中国对教育的投资一直就没超过百分之六,还不如一个贫穷国家对教育的投资。中国自诩为素质教育结果还是有很多人上不起学。

中国的大学录取制度就和赌博一样,地域之间如此不平等。许多人才因此浪费。其实也是政府的政策之一,集权政府是不需要人才的,他希望人才越少越好,他希望人才也只是做一些无关紧要的工作。他的目的是要人都与越傻越好。

独裁国家的教育就是这样的,在哪里都一样。教育的最终目的只是要麻木众人,最后只是为了统治服务。看过《1984》吗,中国就是这样的国家,独裁的集权统治,各种的愚民措施,民主的无限缺失,各种自由都不存在,人权只是一场梦。就是在这样的情况下,还是有很多人坚决的拥护党,他们就是那些愚昧的大众,当最需要的就是他们,他们越傻越好,当说什么他们就信什么,当让他们干什么他们就做什么。多可笑又多可悲。1989年过去了,中国彻底是一个黑暗的国家了。

某些party真是厉害

我发现某些party实在很厉害。洗脑的功夫一流,把自己做过的某些龌龊事,有的藏起来了,有的藏不住就全归结到别人身上或者成了所谓的历史时期的小误差。。。。他的思想控制做的多好啊,有些事死了那麽多人,还能掩盖的如此之好,导致有很多人到现在还能在鼓里。多有成效啊,有这麽多的可怜的人不光不知道他是什么真面目,还帮助他攻击说实话的人。有意思,还什么”妖魔化“,自己都已经是妖魔了还怎么”妖魔化“呀。george owell 太厉害了,入木三分的写出了那些prole们的可怜有可恨的品质。寄希望于他们有什么用呢,一群思想简单的愤青而已。

现在全世界人都在关注的却只有中国人一无所知的大事是是什么?

可怜的中国人又被蒙在鼓里了,西边的某个地区正在发生着震动世界的大事,全世界都在讨论这件事,而中国人却一点也不知道,还以为是什么动乱呢,让我想起了9年前发生的一件事。youtube都被封了,中国人失去了一切获知真实消息的途径,当然他们已经习惯了这样。从1949年开始,他们就没有生活在一个正式的世界里。德国是可恶的,法西斯是可恶的,法西斯什么时候才能被打倒呢。

英勇的中国军队。

sunshine 一个极品电影

sunshine讲了匈牙利的一段边个历史。用三代人的视角来讲述。先是一战爆发,匈牙利帝国被打败。共产党统治了国家,但是很快法西斯就取代了共产党。后来二战后,法西斯被打败,共产党重新掌握政权。但是共产政权和法西斯一样是残酷的独裁统治。犯下的罪过比法西斯差不多。人民看清了共产党的真面目后,企图推翻政权但没有成功。主人公被逮了起来,她的奶奶告诉他“每一个政权都会说上一个政权的罪过和腐败,宣布一个公正和自由的未来。不是你在监狱,是他们在监狱里。you are not in prison, they are in prison."共产主义和法西斯在本质上是完全相同的,他们都是独裁制度,对人民采取高压政策,人民没有人权,没有自由。生活在无数的谎言之下,对真实的世界一无所知,多么可悲。

Friday, 21 March 2008

FINALLY FINALLY ANOTHER BREAK COMES

fanally the first term comes to an end. the holiday is waving to us. really exhausted in first term. study come heavier hand heavier, almost gone to the edge. i'm really gonna crack down if the term hasn't finished. but works in holiday are extremly heavy too, 5 juornal and half of the workbook to do in english. every subject has work to do. but still feel happy 'cos i don't need to go to school for a long time.

Saturday, 15 March 2008

because of you--to my mother and father

kelly clarkson-because of you , i become to this kind of person. I don't i should thank you or blame you. but this song is for you , hope you can think of what you've done.
Kelly Clarkson - Because of You
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Saturday, 1 March 2008

FINALLY FINISHED PHYSICS SAC!

I finally finished the physics sac this friday.it really a nightmare. OMG, a whole two mouths' suffer.finally finshed on friday!oh,the world looks better after i get rid of it.bravo!

Saturday, 9 February 2008

study is really heavy

the study is really heavy since we start the new term.homeworks are pretty much i can barely finsh it. espellially the specialist math, our teacher barely teach us nothing but leave us so much homeworks. what do he think we are? superman? chemistry is always about some crap of chemical snalysis and it mess me all up.chinese is too annoying,i don't wanna take this class at all! it totally a waste of time. it wastes time, it's doll and after all it won't make a high mark! i'm gonna ask the principal if i can quit it.

as the study is really heavy , so i'm afraid i won't refresh this blog very often.but i'll try to make it more frequent.

Friday, 25 January 2008

i got nadal and federer's autograph!

yesterday i went to see the Australia open. It has been last a long time and i haven't get in once. so yesterday i went to see it with three more student. As usual we ask for tickets outside the gate. but OMG we were so lucky! four pretty girl give us four tickets before we ask them. so we get in without any affort. And we didn't walk a long time before we found nadal ! so i got his autograph easily. and What's so surprising was just after i got the autograph of nadal we found federer was training in the next ground! so i got federer's autograph too! too happy i was ,even though i just know Nadal right when i met him yesterday.

and i heard federer and nadal were both beaten today.it's really a pity and i hope it wasn't bacause i got their luck!

Wednesday, 9 January 2008

about the summer break

it's really a exciting summer break i've ever have although it is really short.
we had a exciting party few days before chrismas.On christmas eve we went to the church and felt the western religion culture.
we went to frankston beach the day before NYE.only after you've seen that beach you know how beautiful a beach could be. On NYE we went to the city to see the fireworks.
it fabulous i'd say. and the people is extremly much,i think i've even never seen that many people in china.
then we went to philip island several days after NYE,the little penguins are so cute!
so this is all about my summer break.it was really exciting.